My 1st rented house was a 2-bedroom apartment/flat which I shared with 4 others during the 1st year of my working life. The 2nd was a single storey terraced house which I shared with hubbu after we got married. The 3rd was a tragic one; we were being persuaded by a friend to move and rent his, quite far from our workplace, after 1 year the house was being auctioned and we were forced to move out, rented a double-storey terraced house nearby and settle down for two years. The 5th was also the same pattern house, just a walking distance, rented after the owner decided to move-in. The 6th was just 4 houses away, rented right after the owner said his niece wanted to rent his. Pheeww!!!...
This moving-out-renting-phase was happening within 6 years only before I said to hubby, enough is enough. We definitely need to try and buy a house of our own. Coincidentally, there was a new housing development under construction nearby our rented studio and when it was completed, I was very much taken to the pattern; I consider it as love at first sight. Furthermore, I don't like to fish around looking at houses like hubby so I persuaded him to try our luck by meeting the developer and asked if there were any house available. Luckily, there were a few available and we decided to try one, wait for loan approval and here we are now, living in a 4 bedroom double storey terraced house which we proudly claim as ours (even though belum habis bayar,hi..hi..).
My house may not look pretty but I always envisage it as it's going to be with a little bit of imagination together with Doa that Allah s.w.t will grant this wish in the future, insyaallah.. Of course we did our best to furnish, decorate it (within our budget) and make it as livable and homely to us anak-beranak. However, it is now a clutter of things, courtesy from imigrating friends, things from the studio lah, from the office lah etc.etc.. Senang cerita macam kedai barang2 terpakailah!
Last week, my cousin Fidah had moved-in to her new house and I can't help but comparing (biasalah, orang perempuan) hers with ours. Of course hers is bigger, grander, newer (love the smells of fresh paint and new things/bau kedai), the house is stately designed, elegantly furnished, in gated community, and for me, the best feature is the open air indoor courtyard (wish I had one!) .
It's true about the saying in Koran which is, to lower your gaze from looking at forbidden things (rumah orang pun termasuk dalam list ke?) or else your heart will turn black, with envy (not green with envy?), jealousy, desire, dissatisfaction, greed and the worst of all is, it makes you wanting more than you rightly deserves. I should be grateful for what I have now because if I felt otherwise, afraid that Allah s.w.t will withdraw all the conveniences and pleasures bestowed upon me after all these years, nauzubillah... After all, it's not about where you begin but your end (Afterlife) that counts. Hopefully, my last destination is better than this short-lived HEAVEN ON EARTH, Aminnn...
*Gratitude unlocks the fullness of life. It turns what we have into enough
and more. It turns denial into acceptance, chaos into order, confusion to clarity. It can turn a meal into a feast, a house into a home, a stranger into a friend. Gratitude makes sense of our past, brings peace for today and creates vision for tomorrow ~ Melody Beattie